Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Groaning

Forgive me for I am about to rant at you.

Its 1:40am and I am groaning. I am groaning because I have no AC, its texas and its currently 82 degrees in my apartment. I am groaning because I am awake and I really don't want to be. I am groaning because I hate our culture. I am groaning because I wish I had an uncle named Iroh (firebending optional). I am groaning because I hate how much control my body has over me.

I promise these things are all related by more than just sleep deprivation. Not that I will explain how here.

This world sucks, we all know it. How do we know that though? We want something better but how do we know to want that? We desire, we groan, for a better world, what makes us think there's a better world to be had? Hunger implies food, respiration implies oxygen, thirst implies drink. For every physical desire we have, there is some means of satisfying it. So what gives with this desire for a world that doesn't suck?

Things just aren't right. Bodies are broken, families are broken, cities are broken, nations are broken. Bigger than why are they broken is the question of how do we know they are broken? How is it that we are even capable of desiring something better? How do we know what better is?

All of that to quote this:
For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope 21 that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. 22 For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. 23 And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies.
This is what I am feeling tonight. The groaning of Creation and of my body, subjected to futility. I know there is something better, and dangit, I want it now! To quoth the internet:



I really don't, which is incredibly selfish. Wait, why is that selfish? Because if Christ were to return today, a lot of people would be left out from that perfect world we're all groaning for:
The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance. - 2 Peter 3:9
Still sucks waiting though. There is absolutely nothing here worth waiting for. Not air conditioning, not fancy guns or shiny computers. Not even sex (le gasp!). Heaven, I am sure, will be much better than all of those. So what's the hold up? Well apparently those people are worth waiting around for.

See, that's where the "in hope" part of Romans 8:20 comes into play. God didn't subject the Earth to worldsuck out of wrath or malice, He did so out of hope that people, who had rejected Him, would realize their desire could only be met in Him.

Worldsuck is the thing that tells us something is wrong and compels us to find out what. By God's grace we are saved, but only after we start asking the question "what's wrong with me?"

So I guess I should wrap this up in some semi-coherent fashion before I fall asleep on my keyboard (though that wouldn't be a bad thing, at least I would get sleep (I am going to be sooooooo productive tomorrow)). Things are wrong, but they won't always be. What man has broken God will make new, and I will endure every moment of worldsuck (especially my incredibly light American flavored worldsuck (newsflash, if you live in America the chances that your life actually sucks is pretty low (just ask anyone living in Sudan))) that comes my way, knowing that each moment God delays, someone else is accepting Christ as his or her's Lord and Savior.

I am certain I will regret posting this by Thursday at the lastest, but I don't care. I will leave it here unedited in all its sleep deprived glory as a reminder that sometimes even a broken air conditioner can give you a theology lesson. It did for me anyway, hope you got something useful out of this rant.

2 comments:

  1. Ouch. Shoot, man, I'm sorry to hear that everything's gone downhill lately. I mean, sure, everyone's got days like that, but ouch they stink.

    About the sense of yearning, I totally agree. I've always felt that the human sense that something is wrong meant that the world isn't meant to be the way it is. We all realize that, we just have varying degrees of admitting it.

    Afalstein

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    1. Well my AC is fixed now which makes me a much happier (and well rested) person.

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